I have always loved having a family blog. I am terrible at completing baby books. I am not a scrapbooker. I do, however, love to have documentation of all the wonderful and crazy happenings of our lives. I always tried to do about a post a week or at least a few a month...
Then the reality of having three active young kids hit. Almost every day, I feel over my head. Taking care of three demanding kids all day and night is like sensory overload. My quiet evenings are no longer catching up on "me" things, it's often still catching up on "them" things like piles and piles of laundry. Some nights, I am not looking for a little personal, creative fulfillment, all I can muster is a vegetative state on the couch. I can't catch up on long overdo emails to friends or return phone calls. I can't even bear to retell the most adorable tales of adventures that the kiddos got into that day. I relish them but some nights, most nights, there is nothing left.
I couldn't admit this for a long time. Maybe I can now, only because I feel like things are starting to ease up a bit. I can see around the corner that it's not going to be this hard forever. Some days the mental exhaustion seems to ease enough that I can put more than two consecutive coherent sentences together and I feel like a normal adult momentarily. These are the things that they don't tell you about motherhood. You will lose your brain capacity for a while because it can't deal with so much simultaneous stimulation.
I am here to say, I am back. The last 7 months did exist. I am very sorry that I didn't document them here, but as sorry as I am that those memories aren't layed out for the world to see, I am more happy that I was present in those moments than sitting behind a computer screen ignoring my children.
Maybe I'll go back and highlight a few things, like holidays and such, but I'm not overpromising here. We'll take each day as it comes.
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